Wrappin' It Up

 "Those who walk by faith usually don't know where they are going, but they do know the One leading them. That will be enough." - Gary Black

My friend Ashley Wingate posted that from Haiti the other day, and it really stood out to me because boy, has that been true for me in the last 18 months!  A few years ago I had no idea this is where I'd be today, but God did, and I'm so very thankful for His direction and His faithfulness.

Earlier this week

It's hard to believe, but my first school year here in Kenya is about to draw to a close.  Two weeks from tomorrow I'll be on a plane headed west!  While I can't wait to get home for a visit, it truly has been a wonderful year here, and I look forward to coming back in July.  As I've been thinking through some things, there are three categories that things keep falling into: things I've done for the first time, things I'm thankful for, and things I can't wait to have/experience during my 7 weeks back in the States.  Some things are humorous, some more serious, but I thought I'd take this chance to record some of them, for myself and my own memories if nothing else.  If you happen to enjoy the lists too, then great!  In this post, I'll tackle the first two lists, and I'll save the things I'm looking forward to for next week!  (Two posts from me in one week?!  Yikes.  Watch out!  It's about to get crazy.  Haha!)  :)

List 1: Things I Did for the First Time Ever

(In Random Order)

• drove on the right side of the car on the left side of the road
• hiked and camped along the rim of a volcanic crater
• walked among zebras and giraffes
• snorkeled in coral tide pools and caves
• dined in a cave restaurant
• helped distribute food to Somali refugees
• flew in the smallest plane I've been in yet
• ate Ethiopian food (took a few tries, but now I crave it sometimes!)
• ate Indian food (found out the secret was to add a little salt--YUM!)
• celebrated my birthday in another country
• Skyped with 3 services at my church
• ate KFC in a country outside the US
• felt an earthquake
• had students regularly thank me for teaching them
• had a student tell me I was "so modern and cool"...while I was wearing PJs
• shared my faith daily and explicitly with students
• got "stung" by a caterpillar and had a rash for a month!
• used a squatty-potty
• held a baby and thought I was going to break her ribs trying to pick her up because she was so malnourished...and fell in love with her instantly
• kissed a giraffe (or rather, it kissed me)
• got up in the middle of the night to watch a sporting event. twice.
• watched the Cats win a national championship online
• welcomed and helped host 30 children on their first trip out of their village and watched the same kids experience swimming for the first time
• drove on a rural Kenyan road in a rainstorm (accompanied by a live chicken)
• bought a whole chicken with intention to cook it (it's still frozen...)
• played telephone pictionary
• followed high-altitude baking instructions
• said "soda" instead of "pop".   boo.
• became a certified alien and a resident of another country
• got a driver's license from outside the US
• had a complete stranger tell me why I'm not married
• witnessed a recorder quartet in concert
• paid over $10 for a box of cereal (at least it was a BIG box!)
• visited a Masai village
• got stuck in the mud in a Land Cruiser; didn't think it was possible; it is
• visited a tea farm
• had a security guard say to me, "I can see your car is as clean as you," um...thanks?????
• made my own beer cheese (yum!!)
• paid someone else to do the cleaning and laundry (love it, but still not really used to it!)
• got a massage (2 actually, and hardly paid anything for them!)
• had a bonfire on the beach
• was asked (along with the entire congregation) to play air guitar during church
• attended a Christmas Eve pool party
• held a hedgehog

Those are some of my "firsts" for the year.  I'm sure I've forgotten some, but you get the idea.  :)  The next list is a bit more serious (in most cases) as I reflect on God's blessings.

List 2: Things I'm Thankful For

• the people God has placed here; there was a substantial number of new staff members here this year, and some of those people, as well as others, have become an important and regular part of my life; this year wouldn't have been the same without them!
• relatively good health; doesn't appear I've contracted any strange diseases or critters; (this will be confirmed by a doctor tomorrow, I hope!)
• the ability to stay in contact with friends and family through facebook, Skype, WhatsApp, Vimeo, and all those other crazy technologies that keep us connected
• cheap cell phone calls and texts to the States
• the friends who have made the effort to stay connected with me and their many notes and comments to encourage me during the last year 
• my family's support and help with Stateside business stuff--couldn't have done it without their help!
• Lucy at Central Bank--she's been a life saver!
• the patient and cooperative professors at Georgetown who have enabled me to complete my degree from here
• having a school that genuinely cares for its staff
• being able to live in a place in Kenya where I generally don't have to worry about extended power outages, water shortages, safety, etc.; I'm pretty spoiled/blessed here.
• the chances I've had to travel within Kenya so far
• the 25 children I've had as students this year and their supportive parents
• supportive administrators
• no state testing!!!  :)
• I got to see a face from home when Diane came to visit in February!
• iTunes, for allowing downloads in Kenya!
• that God provided the Waltons to take care of Bailey and give her a wonderful year
• the memories I've made here
• having a pool within walking distance ;)
• the upcoming opportunities I have to travel this summer and the financial means to do so
• the chances I've had to watch my students grow spiritually
• receiving continued confirmation that this is where I'm supposed to be for now

As you can see, it has been a fun, growing year for me.   I've been challenged, and I've definitely identified some ways I want to grow in the coming year, but I'm thankful for where I stand right now and for God's faithfulness all along the way.  Thanks for sharing in the journey with me!  Next week: Things I'm Looking Forward to In the States!  Some things might surprise you...  :)

Alien Encounters

As some of you already saw on facebook, this week I got my official "Republic of Kenya Alien Certificate." See? Here it is!

To some of you that was no surprise, it simply confirmed something you've known for a while. (Insert smiley-winking face here.) Others of you had much fun generating responses such as, "Take me to your leader," "Live long and prosper," "Keep the probes to yourself," and "I come in peace!" What you haven't seen is the picture that is printed on this card. It seems that the goal of Nyayo House was to make me look as alien-like as possible! BUT since it would be unwise to put a full image of a legal document online, you only get to imagine the picture. I only wish you could have heard Njeri laughing as she handed it to me!


Ok, ok. All joking aside, I do have a serious reason for this post. Call me strange (I'm an alien, remember?), but when I hear the word alien, one of the first things that comes to mind is the verse from 1 Peter 2:11 that says, "...as aliens and strangers in the world...." I remember a song from when I was in middle school, Not of This World by Petra (oh, I know some of you listened to Petra too!). Some of the lyrics stated, "We are pilgrims in a strange land/We are so far from our homeland.../We are strangers, we are aliens/We are not of this world." When we choose to follow God, our true home is Heaven, so we are aliens, outsiders, in this world in which we live.

I was thinking about that this week, with all the "alien talk" and all, and I got to thinking about how my experience living as an expat in Kenya compares to living as a Christian in this world. Before I go any farther, let me say that I know there are people out there far more qualified to write this than I, both as an alien/foreigner and as a Christian. I'm just trying to draw on the little bit of experience I have to make some connections. Overall, adjusting to living in Kenya has been pretty easy for me, and while yes, there are some obvious ways I'm an outsider, I generally don't feel all that out of place.

Please don't take my statements to mean this is the case for foreigners everywhere, and I certainly don't mean to stereotype every immigrant or native. However, ten months of living here has allowed me a little bit of experience upon which to base some generalizations. Also, I don't write these things to point fingers or condemn anyone, but to shed some light on some areas where many of us need a reminder, and to encourage you to make some changes if you need to. And of course, from here on out, the term alien is used to refer to a foreigner, an immigrant, NOT little green guys with one eye. So here we go.

When you're an alien, you look different from the natives.
For this curly-headed white girl, this is very much true in Kenya. It doesn't matter how dark my equatorial tan gets, I'm such a white girl! I'm pretty easy to spot. Proof:

So how does this apply to our lives as Christians and being aliens in this world? Well, we need to look different. That doesn't mean we all have to wear black clothes, or ankle-length skirts, or braided hair all the time (thank goodness!), but when people see us, see our actions, something should be different. The rest of that verse (and the next) from 2 Peter says this: "Dear friends, I urge you, as aliens and strangers in the world, to abstain from sinful desires, which war against your soul. Live such good lives among the pagans that, though they accuse you of doing wrong, they may see your good deeds and glorify God on the day he visits us." They may SEE your good deeds. Looking different doesn't just have to be about physical appearance, it should involve a lot more of what others witness by watching our actions. Do we treat people, especially the poor, needy, oppressed, and out-cast, the same way as others? Are we honest when we think no one is watching? Do we serve others? Do we do our best in our work, as working for the Lord? I know I regularly fail at many of these things, but these are great reminders of how we can look different from others around us, not for our own recognition, but as the verse says, "So they may...glorify God."

When you're an alien, you speak a different language than the natives.
I've had it pretty easy here. While Kiswahili is widely spoken, especially outside of Nairobi, English is widely spoken, especially in Nairobi. But particularly during my trips out to Makutano, I've had plenty of instances where a translator was essential. While various members of our support staff here at school have attempted to teach me some Swahili words and phrases, the sad fact is that I haven't gotten very far. I'm clearly an outsider in that respect.

Just like my language as an American is different from many Kenyans, as Christians our language should be different from those who aren't. Certainly we don't have to go around saying "thees" and "thous" and "doth sayeth the Lord." But here is a little of what the Bible has to say about what we should be saying:

• Psalm 19:14 "May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart, be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer."
• Psalm 34:13 "Keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking lies."
• Psalm 37:30 "The mouth of the righteous man utters wisdom, and his tongue speaks what is just."
• Ephesians 4:29 "Do not let any unwholesome talk come out of your mouths, but only what is helpful for building others up according to their needs, that it may benefit those who listen."
• Philippians 2:14 "Do everything without complaining or arguing."
• Colossians 4:6 "Let your conversation be always full of grace, seasoned with salt..."
• Colossians 3:8 "But now you must rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips."
• James 1:26 "If anyone considers himself religious, and yet does not keep a tight rein on his tongue, he deceives himself and his religion is worthless."
• 1 Peter 3:10 "Whoever would love life and see good days must keep his tongue from evil and his lips from deceitful speech."

Boy, are some of those things hard for me. But it doesn't take a lot to realize just how different our language can be if we take a little time to consider the changes we need to make.

When you're an alien, you occasionally feel out of place.
It's true. Sometimes, no matter how much you want to fit in or blend in, you just don't. And that's ok. For some of the reasons I stand out here in Kenya, there is nothing I can ever do to change that, and I don't need to. As Christians, there are many times we'll feel out of place in this world. And that's ok. Different verses in the Bible allude to the idea of being in the world but not of the world, and this hard, especially in our day and age. But as Romans 2:12 reminds us, as Christians our command is, "Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind..." and in doing that, we might feel a bit out of place.


When you're an alien, you're sometimes labeled incorrectly.
Even that Alien Certificate has me labeled incorrectly. It says I work at Pislyn Academu (Rosslyn Academy), and my passport number is incorrect. Besides those errors, there have been a few instances here when people thought I was a certain way simply because I'm an American. Sometimes I might fit the stereotype more than I want to realize, but not all the time. I read a newspaper article the other day that implied that all Americans thought a certain way about a certain issue. No, we don't. I was actually appalled at the situation to which the article was referring. The same occurs to us as Christians--we occasionally get mislabeled. Sometimes it's because others don't understand, sometimes it's because of the actions and words of other Christians, sometimes it's because other people are full of anger and hurt and they just need someone to blame. Sometimes it's because of mistakes we've made in the past. Again, it's ok. Reading through the Easter story last weekend reminded me how many times Jesus stayed silent while he was being falsely accused and mocked. Often that needs to be our response as well as we realize that the world is not going to see things from the same perspective, so they might not see us for who we really are.

When you're an alien, you have to learn to do some things differently.
Guess what? The way you do something isn't the only way it can be done! Shocker, I know. Ha! Some of the things I've had to learn to do differently in Kenya are: drive on the right side of the car and the left side of the road, pre-pay for cell phone service, deal with frequent internet outages, filter water before drinking, use a lot of words to order water to drink at a restaurant, measure metrically, check the bathroom for geckos every morning...the list could go on, but I won't bore you. When we decide to follow Jesus, there are some things we have to learn to do differently: love unselfishly, serve wholeheartedly, sacrifice our will for His, be honest in business deals, have patience, demonstrate self-control, be faithful in marriage. Again, the list goes on, but I think you get the point.

When you're an alien, you long for home.
You know, I became a UK basketball fanatic this year. While I've always enjoyed watching games, in the States you'd never catch me getting up in the middle of the night ONCE, let alone three times to watch a ball game. But now that I'm not there, I suddenly wanted to be sure to be a part of something big that was happening at home. No offense to those of you who are from there, but I never thought Winchester, Kentucky would be a place I couldn't wait to return to! Yet, here I am, counting the weeks until I head back home. I can't wait to see horses and stone fences, UK t-shirts and FRIENDS, taste some beer cheese and pollo bandido. I almost look forward to the first time I hear someone say "They was" or "Krogers" (almost, I said. haha!). When we're away from our home culture for a long period of time, most of us will start to miss it, perhaps in surprising ways.

The same is true many times when we consider our spiritual home, Heaven. Of course none of us has been there yet, but we have a teeny tiny idea of what it will be like. Maybe we know more of what it WON'T be like, and for a lot of people, that's its appeal. I'm not a country music fan by any stretch of the imagination, but a few years ago I was in a friend's car one night when Brad Paisley's When I Get Where I'm Going came on the radio. I don't remember the particulars, but it was during a time when I was really struggling with something, and nothing sounded better to me than to just "get where I'm going." Sitting at that stoplight, that song reduced me to tears because of the ache in my heart to just have the problems go away. While we might not all long for Heaven all day every day, Ecclesiastes 3:11 tells us that "He has set eternity in the hearts of men." Deep down, we all know there is something better, and when things in life on this earth make it seem like we're getting farther and farther away from eternity, from our true home, we might just start missing this place to which we've never been.

Well, there you have them. Reflections on my life as an alien. I pray God can use something in here to bless you, encourage you, and challenge you. As I said in the beginning, I'm not the expert on any of this, and I don't have it mastered. I simply wanted to share what He put on my heart this week. (Insert alien sign-off quote here.)

For further kicks and an early 90s flashback, listen to Petra's Not of This World on YouTube. :)

Joy Encounter

It has been ages since I last posted, so I thought it was about time I did. It took writing a whole lotta “nothing” to realize what has stood out to me the most in the last month. So I started over.

Joy. In our churches and Christmas carols, we hear that word pretty often in December. But how often do we truly see it? How often do we truly demonstrate it? And how often do we mistake happiness for joy? For me, I’ve encountered joy in the faces, the tears, the laughter, and the hearts of some of the women and children I’ve observed in the last month—not because of the parties they attended (there weren’t any parties) or the presents they were going to give or get (there weren’t any presents) or the feasts in which they partook (there were no feasts—for most, hardly any food at all). Their joy comes from a different source, and with all the other stuff the rest of us are surrounded with and trying to do, I think most of us miss it most of the time. I know I do. Thankfully God decided to let me witness one display of joy that I couldn’t miss if I tried.

Let me try to give the background story. In late fall of each year, a committee at my school in Nairobi, Rosslyn Academy, accepts applications for organizations to help through our annual Christmas Project—where we collect money and/or other items to help with a need the organization has. Of course I wanted to submit the organization my aunt helps with, Village Project Africa (VPA), but being a new staff member and not really sure how the whole thing worked, I decided I’d hang back on that this year. A couple weeks after the first request for applicants was made, we received another email informing us that we hardly had any applicants and that often the selected organizations were nominated by Rosslyn staff members, so if we knew of any “worthy” organizations, then we were requested to submit them. So I did. I didn’t want to get my hopes up—like I said, I was a new staff member, the organization was pretty far away, etc., etc. Wellll….lo and behold, the selection committed overwhelming chose VPA along with another organization here in Nairobi, New Dawn Education Center. Yeah, I was pretty floored.

There is a lot more amazingness (yes, maybe I just made that word up) to this Christmas Project story—about the cow project and multi-storey gardens and how they’re going to help so many people, about the students who designed their own crazy ways of earning money to give to the project, about how proud I am of my own class for how they alone raised over $2000, about how much money was actually raised in total—but most of those stories have been told through VPA’s facebook site, and they’re secondary to my point in this post, so if you want to find out about them, check them out for yourself!

What matters for this story is that the students from Heritage Academy, VPA’s school, were invited to come to Nairobi to participate in our Christmas Project chapel—a time when the entire Rosslyn community gathers for a time of worship and to present the gifts to the organizations. This quickly became THE news in the village, from what I hear. You see, most of the children from Makutano have never left the village. Ever. That means they’ve never seen a paved road, tall buildings, swarms of people, concrete. For the 30 children who got to come, this was seriously the opportunity of a lifetime.

They arrived here at Rosslyn on the afternoon of December 15. The children walked across campus in two straight lines and hardly made a peep. I can’t imagine what was going on in their heads, but when I’m around, they’re pretty stoic, so it’s awfully hard to tell when they’re excited. They played on the playgrounds and on the soccer field (aka “football pitch”) before dinner. We fed them, some carolers came to visit, and then they went to bed. Friday morning they got breakfast, met a bunch of Rosslyn students, visited some classrooms, and performed on a stage in front of 600 people! (Pictures and video of all of that appear on VPA’s facebook page as well.)

Through all of this, there are a few shy smiles, but mostly straight faces, whispered answers, and hushed “thank yous.” But after lunch, it was all about to change and turn into the most beautiful display of innocent, childlike joy I’ve ever witnessed. After lunch, we took them swimming.

I wish I could recount the details of how it was all possible anyway—these kids didn’t have swimsuits, towels, anything for a pool. But through some “God-math” and some families who answered our pleas for donations, it was made possible, perfectly. I missed seeing the first few kids in the water because I was in the girls’ dressing room helping the last few get changed. But then I heard it, and I had to see it. Thirty kids in a baby pool, squealing and splashing like I’ve never heard. It almost seemed like time stood still for a few minutes while those kids had their first encounter with “swimming.” All of the restraint they’d held in erupted in that pool, and I am SO very glad it did! It was honestly one of the best things I’ve ever witnessed. Sheer joy. I got some of it on video, but it really doesn’t even begin to capture the moment.

As the kids splashed around over the next two hours, there were a few times when they burst into song. (These kids LOVE to sing! Davis said one of the vans of kids sang the whole six hours to Nairobi!) In the pool, first it was the Hokey-Pokey, then another silly song. But then what I heard, what struck me, is what I’m trying to write about. Those kids, who’d never seen a city, who struggle to have shoes and food to eat, who’ve lost parents and grandparents to disease and death and drinking and divorce, who’ve suffered and hurt more than we can imagine, they began to sing:

“I’m trading my sorrows, I’m trading my shame, I’m laying them down for the joy of the Lord.”

And they have, too.

It just took a swimming pool to turn it loose!

In Habakkuk chapter 3, Habakkuk tells of things that will happen—loss of food, loss of crops, loss of cattle, basically total devastation for Judah. But then in verse 18 he says, “YET will I rejoice in the Lord, I will be joyful in God my Savior.” And that’s what I saw in those kids in the baby pool at Rosslyn Academy on December 16. They rejoice in God their Savior because for most of them, it’s pretty much all they have.

There’s more to this story, because to know where these kids are coming from, you should meet some of the women in their lives—all widows, all living in teeny-tiny houses with mud walls and mud floors, most struggling to survive day-to-day. Irene, Florence, Zipporah, Beatrice, Jane, and Mama Mombasa, just to name a few. But their stories are for another time.

For now, simply take time to give your life some perspective. What do you allow to get in the way of joy? Circumstances? People? Sin? Your job? Finances? Leaf blowers? (That one was for me.) This isn’t a new problem, by the way. Thousands of years ago, King David was missing out on some joy too. His prayer?

“Restore to me the joy of Your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me.” ~Psalm 51:12

If you’re looking for some joy, I’d say that’s a pretty good place to start.

(To see and hear the kids during their pool time, click here.)

A Convoy of Hope

It has been quite a while since my last post, so I decided it was time for an update. I've had some pretty amazing "Kenyan" experiences in the last few weeks, so let me fill you in on one of them.

Last weekend I was able to participate in a food distribution and famine relief trip in the northeastern province of Kenya. A friend and fellow teacher here at Rosslyn, Jamie Dunning, has already written some great stuff about this trip on his blog, so let me allow him to give you some background information on this trip:

"The drought in East Africa, affecting Northern Kenya, Somalia, and Ethiopia, is the worst in 60 years and has led to the worst food crisis in the world. 13 million people across the region have been affected and thousands have already lost their lives. Dadaab, a refugee camp in North Eastern Kenya, is now occupied with over 400,000 refugees seeking food and water, with 1,200 more people arriving every day...

This past weekend [we] joined a group of volunteers from International Christian Fellowship and Convoy of Hope to travel to a small village of Sombo, just south of Garissa, to deliver much needed food aid. The village of Sombo is made up of a combination of Somali and Watu people that have migrated from Somalia over the years. This area is desert and has not received rain in over 2 years. The results have been devastating. A common sight in the area is to see people digging in a dried river bed in search of water. People are dying every day. Even the camels have sagging humps and are thin. Our mission was to deliver food to between 300-400 people, enough to last each family a week or so. When we arrived in Sombo we were welcomed by the people with traditional songs and dances. They were overjoyed at the prospect of receiving food."

Jamie and a group of others had traveled to Sombo on Friday, then a group of us were able to take a Mission Aviation Fellowship plane up to join them on Saturday morning. They met us at the airstrip in Garissa, then we took a fun, off-road trip down a camel trail to reach Sombo. As Jamie wrote, the villagers were excited to greet us. Being a predominantly Muslim region, it was interesting to see how the groups of men and women were separate for most of the time we were there. We took some time to greet them and play with the children before we began to distribute the food.


As I looked around this dry desert region, it was just hard for me to imagine that anyone lived, or even survived, in this area at all. Not a drop of water to be seen (the closest source is the crocodile-infested Tana River). It was SO hot, and there was NOTHING around except some small huts, dried branches, and people. I don't even understand how they get clothes! WHERE do they get them, first of all, and how on earth do they earn any income at all in order to purchase the clothes, or the cloth to make them? I simply cannot fathom a lifetime that consists of that day in and day out without any real hope for anything to change.

There ARE small changes, though, that are making a difference. Kenyan pastor David Maina is working in Sombo. He has helped start a Christian school where Muslim children are attending every day and learning of the truth of Jesus Christ. A solar-powered water pump and tower have just been installed to help provide fresh water to the community. Bryan Burr, who is actually the father of one of my students, is a missionary with Convoy of Hope (yes, I borrowed their name for the title of this post), and he travels around to places like this in Kenya all of the time. Bryan and others like him ARE helping to offer hope in places where it seems like there isn't any. For a video update on what Bran and Convoy of Hope are doing in East Africa, check out this video:

Africa Famine Update from Convoy of Hope on Vimeo.

Now for the coolest part of this trip! A team from the U.S. had been here a few weeks before our trip to Sombo to assemble food packets to hand out to families. They had made 400 packages, more than twice the amount that the elders of the village had told Brian we would need. That morning, one of the men who was helping to coordinate the distribution counted the bags again to make sure all 400 were there. 400. As families arrived to receive their donations, we began to worry that there wouldn't be enough. What would happen then? How bad would it be to have to turn families away? Would there be a mob scene if that happened? These people were starving and desperate, and who could blame them if they got upset? So some of us began to pray. We didn't even really talk about it, but from conversations I've had since then, I know there were at least a few prayers being offered for there to be enough. There was. The last people went through the line, then quietly, people went home. It wasn't until Monday that we found out what really happened. Remember that there were 400 food packages assembled? Well, we handed out 450 that day. And no one went home without. 450. There's only one was to explain that! Jehovah Jireh, The Lord Who Provides, was at work that day.


As I think about the land that I saw last weekend, one verse in particular comes to mind, Psalm 63:1 :

"O God, you are my God, earnestly I seek you; my soul thirsts for you, my body longs for you, in a dry and weary land where there is no water."

That was a dry and weary land if I've ever seen one, and let me tell you, I was THIRSTY! But this verse reminds me that, more than water, I need--people need--the life and rest that can only come from our Heavenly Father. As much as I hope and pray that the people in these famine lands receive food and water to keep them alive, even more I hope that these people come to know Jesus. Please pray for the people of Somalia, Ethiopia, and northern Kenya who are fighting to keep their families alive. Besides praying, find a way to help. It doesn't take much, and you never know what God will use to bring people to Him!


If you would like to contribute to famine relief through Convoy of Hope, visit https://donate.convoyofhope.org/sslpage.aspx

So How Was Your Day...Really?

This post has nothing to do with my time in Africa, but it has a lot to do with how we look at, use, and value life. An email I read when I got home this evening has really given me perspective on what I'd consider a bad day, and I thought it was worth sharing. The following words are from Deb Watters. She and her husband, Mike, have been family friends for about 18 years. Five years ago, their 6-year-old daughter, Corinne, was diagnosed with cancer. While Corinne was undergoing treatment in the hospital, they met a 9-year-old boy named Victor who was also dealing with cancer. Victor had just been, or was about to be, turned over to be a ward of the state. Imagine being 9 years old, alone, fighting cancer. That alone will give you some perspective on your day. To make a long story short, the Watters ended up adopting Victor, and he became one of their 7 (yes, seven!) children. Five years later at 14, Victor is nearing the end of his fight against cancer. Their entire family has been an unbelievable example of faith in the face of suffering, and as you'll see here, Victor's life has been eternally changed by the love and grace of this family and is a testimony to us all. The following is Deb's update from Wednesday night:

"I am convinced that the ‘groanings’ of this world that we’ve experienced recently are all a reminder from God that heaven is the real home that we long for. And we couldn’t be prouder of how Victor and all the kids have handled all of this.

After an extremely harrowing day (few weeks really), Victor rested on the couch while all the kids gathered to listen as I read from a book called ‘Someday Heaven’ that we’ve been working through. It was balm for the soul.

But despite all of our recent conversations about heaven, none of us was prepared for how quickly Victor’s health has failed. After putting the kids to bed tonight, Mike and I had a long quiet talk with Victor as we kneeled beside him on the couch. The reality of the eminency of his death was quite a shock to him tonight, but Mike (as usual) had just the right words to calm and assure him and I struggled to keep myself together. In one moment Victor was anxious (“I never thought it would come to this”, “Should I write out a list of who should get my stuff?”, “I don’t want to be cremated”, etc), and then with Mike’s soothing words (a few from me), he would relax and smile in that wise content way of his.

We talked of having visits with friends and family over the next few days, Mike mentioned that Davis may come for a visit tomorrow. (You might remember that Davis shaved his head for Victor). Victor leaned his head back from exhaustion and pain, but breathed out a shallow whisper in the dark, “He’s been a goooood friend.” I stood up to get more pain medicine for him but he waived me back. “Wait, wait.”

He wanted to talk about a few stories that he’d wondered about. “You remember that story about Lazarus, how he died and then Jesus raised him from the dead?” Yes. “Well, didn’t Jesus have to make Lazarus leave heaven?” “And when Jesus died and the Bible says that people came out of their graves … I always thought it was sad that people had to leave heaven.” We talked about that a bit … not sure we had all the right answers, but he was more concerned about staying PUT in heaven than getting there, I think.

We were a bit exhausted from thinking, talking, crying, and even laughing. Mike got up to get something. I rested my chin on my forearm on the back of the sofa as we both stared off into space for a bit, letting our thoughts turn over. Then he turned to me intently and said, “Mom, if I go … I mean soon … will you tell my family about God, about Jesus?” Then his eyes grew fierce as he clarified, “I mean REALLY try?” And I promised as the tears rolled some more. Then we talked about making a video so that he could say what he wanted to them and others … and he asked if I would help him. Yes sir.

Victor's breathing episode this morning was scary for us all. But it has been a blessing for us to sit back in calmer moments and reflect on how these next days may play out and how we can better handle future episodes. Mike was at a breakfast meeting and I had just pulled in the driveway from a school meeting down the street and was finishing a phone call. The night before, Victor and Eric’s friend Joe had slept over after a soccer game. Although he felt poorly, Victor insisted on sleeping on the basement couch to be with the boys as they watched a movie in their sleeping bags. He slept with a portable phone and called me in the night for more pain medicine. In the dark, he quietly held liquid morphine under his tongue to ease the pain as his brother and friend slept; then he struggled to get comfortable again and drifted off. In the late morning, when Victor, Eric, and Joe climbed the stairs to the kitchen and I sat in the van in the driveway, everything changed.

As he rounded the top of the steps, Eric asked Victor if he wanted some eggs. But Victor gasped that he couldn’t breath and clutched his chest in pain. Later tonight Victor confided in me that what Eric did next made him feel really good: Eric ran screaming through the house in every direction calling for Mom. (I’m smiling now at the thought of Eric’s sheepish grin but it wasn’t even a little funny then.) By the time I got to the kitchen, Victor was seated in a chair gasping for breath with tears and clutching his chest as pain occasionally stabbed at him. Oh, how helpless we all felt, and none more than me. Because I feared just such an attack, I had asked our home healthcare nurse a few days ago what to do if he lost his breath. So I tried everything she told me. First I got the morphine. But he wildly said “no” …he couldn’t hold it in his mouth as he gasped for air. So I commanded Brian to get a fan and we positioned it as his face as I ran for the car to het a 4-year-old inhaler (a new one was coming in the morning with the hospice doctor). I flipped the top up and Victor grabbed it to take a quick breath … then grabbed his chest and yelled as if he’d been shot. He said later that it felt like a stabbing pain and a ‘pop’. Then he looked at me with terrified eyes and said, “Mom, what happens if I stop breathing HERE?!” I said, “Then we’ll do what they’d do in the hospital,” (not knowing exactly what that would be but knowing that when you’re in pain, just being in the hospital is comforting and I tried not to picture myself doing CPR on the kitchen floor). That was the last straw though. The wide-eyed kids in the house scrambled to follow my commands to get Victor’s wheelchair, my purse and keys, phone Dad, clear a path (you’d have to see our garage to understand), and help us get Victor into the van.

I broke several traffic laws on the way to the local Emergency Room as I phoned our Children’s Hospital oncology nurse to prep the local ER folks that we’d be coming. Victor kept up his shallow gulping in the back seat and asked a few times how long it would be before we got there. Then he said that he was scared. Me too (though not out loud). I had planned out a bunch of stuff for my day today, and a near-death experience for one of my children was NOT one of them. But I looked at him in the rearview mirror, then turned to see his eyes, and said what I believe down to the core of who I am (and have said many times before), “Victor, you KNOW that you don’t need to be afraid. The worst thing that can happen to us is the BEST thing…” but he cut me off in a high pained voice. “Mom, I KNOW, but stop. You’re scaring me.” I guess at that moment neither one of us was ready for that moment. But then, after a short silence, at the intersection of McAndrews and Nicollete, time stood still as a wheezing voice from the back seat said, “Mom, I love you.” I’m not sure how I saw to get the E.R. from there, and my mascara was long gone by the time we rolled in and were ushered to Room number 4. The nurses were nice but sure didn’t move fast enough to either of our liking. I had to be clear a few times that he needed more pain medicine, oxygen, and something for anxiety right away. Soon he was hooked to an IV with an oxygen mask on his face, still in pain, I held his hand and recited Bible promises that came to mind as the tears in my eyes echoed the ones in the eyes of the nurse across from me. Everything was better when Mike arrived a few minutes later.

Well, at least better for a few minutes. Victor was just starting to stabilize . We were reviewing details with the E.R. doctor when the kids called from home to tell us that Meghan had fallen from her crib and something seemed wrong with her hand. I said, “You are kidding”, hoping that they were, but remembering how the night before, Meghan had proudly hooked her little leg (up to the knee) over the side of the crib before I tucked her back in. You know the rest … broken arm. Our poor little girl had missed a nap and made it clear (to everyone in the next county I think) that she was in no mood for an oxygen clip on her finger (or her toe), or a name bracelet on her foot, or a scale to weigh her. But she quieted down when Daddy stepped on the scale with her in his arms. And she perked up when we told her that she could see her beloved ‘Di Der” (Victor). My pictures couldn’t capture how cute those two battle-weary siblings were sitting side-by-side in bed together, especially as Victor shared his popsicle with her. Several medical personnel popped their head in just to see the sight.

Yet it wasn’t until I began typing this tonight that it hit me how this all began … with another sibling in the hospital … sometimes sitting side-by-side … comraderie somehow easing the pain. God, were you planning even then, through pain, for our joy … to bring You glory? And as I type I remember how often God uses ‘bookends’ in the Bible to finish his story and to highlight the center.

So what is the center of this story? It’s a sweet little boy who finds new life because of his faith in what Jesus has done. (And he can't help but want to tell others.) It’s the gospel."

القوة‎ and مال

I can hardly believe it, I even have students now who weren't alive when it happened, but next month will mark the ten-year anniversary of the bombing of the Twin Towers in New York City, the crash of United flight 93, and the plane crash at the Pentagon. No doubt the next few weeks will be filled with memorial services and emotion as families and a nation remember.

It seems to me that that was when Islam and the Muslim world really began to be noticed in America. Yet, ten years later, what do most of us really know about the more than one billion people in our world who make up the Nation of Islam? Some of us might say they read and follow the teachings of the Quran or that "they" are trying to build a mosque at Ground Zero. Others might say that Muslims make them feel uneasy in airports or that they are the reason so many of our soldiers have lost their lives. Those things might all be true, and I do not at all mean to diminish or trivialize the sacrifice that so many have given for our protection and freedom, but do those observations really give us a picture of what the Muslim world is truly like? Do we even care? Honestly, until recently, I really haven't.

Sure, I've prayed some pretty generic prayers for "the Muslims," but I've never really understood enough to pray more than that or have even known a Muslim by name. As I write this, I have still barely inched past that point. I know the radical Muslims are being blamed for much of the famine crisis that is going on in Somalia right now, for the continued onslaught of terror against the "Western" world, including the deaths of many U.S. and other soldiers from around the world, and for civil wars that are destroying generations. However as Christians, I think that, all political opinions aside, we have a divine responsibility to engage this culture, remembering that these people are still loved by God as His creation, and He knows them each by name. We could even learn a few things from them.

A year ago, my little Winchester bubble didn't exactly teem with people who were openly Muslim. I remember being in the airport here in Nairobi before I boarded my flight home, after spending 3 weeks here. I had about six hours to wait, and there wasn't a whole lot to do, so I just wandered. I remember that at several points throughout the night, I saw groups of men gathered wherever they could find room. They had rolled out mats and were kneeling and openly participating in their time of prayer. That was so foreign to me, and while of course I disagree with the "object" of their attention, I appreciated their dedication and lack of concern about who was watching. How many of us have hesitated to pray at a restaurant because someone might see us and think we're "weird." Ooooh, 'cause that would be so awful! (Please sense the sarcasm...and yes, regrettably, I have thought that before.) As we saw, and we undoubtedly see again in the next few weeks, the pictures of the planes flying in the World Trade Center, many of us wonder what on earth would possess those pilots to not only take the lives of thousands, but to give their own lives in the process, for this god they believed in. Um, shouldn't anyone who calls him/herself a Christian be willing to do that? Now, PLEASE don't misunderstand me here--we are certainly not called to give our lives in the same way, but when was the last time you felt that committed to the faith you profess? Just food for thought.

I hadn't really thought much about the Muslim world since that time, until I came back to Nairobi. Kenya is still a predominantly "Christian" country (seriously though, most of the stores play Christian radio stations! It's kind of weird to hear gospel music blaring from a shoe store!), but there is certainly a much higher percentage of Muslim people here than Winchester. It's not rare to see women in full-coverage black when we go out. While driving down a street, I noticed that on the side of one building was painted "There is no god but Allah" (that one got me a little bit). Last week while out to eat, we heard the call to prayer over a loud-speaker from the nearby mosque. Many store owners are Muslim. (In fact, after shopping with a friend in a store owned by a Muslim man and his family, she even made the comment that the Muslim men in Nairobi, particularly the store owners, were some of the kindest, gentlest people around.) There's nothing about the Muslim culture that seems to be particularly "in your face", but it's definitely here. So I've started paying a little more attention.

It has also been brought to my attention more by some of the local churches. This month is the Muslim month of Ramadan, the holy month of fasting in the Islamic calendar. It's based on the lunar calendar, and this year it's a little earlier than it has been in recent years. Again, here's something I had heard about, but didn't really have a clue what it was. (Here's a decent website to check out if you want to know a little more about Ramadan http://www.suite101.com/content/what-is-ramadan-for-muslims-a138742 .) Now I'm hardly an expert on any of the things I share here, and what I tell you is pretty much the little bit I've learned in the last few weeks. But I'm trying, even if it's just a little bit, to understand what the "fuss" is all about. I have a long way to go.

What has most interested me though is the Muslim "Night of Power," which is coming up this Friday night, August 26. It always occurs during the last 10 days of Ramadan, and apparently this is the night that Muslims traditionally believe was when the Quran first began to be revealed to Muhammad. During this night, millions of Muslims believe that angels perform "special purposes." They also believe that their god will pay special attention to their requests, and many request a dream or a vision for guidance and revelation. Now here's the good stuff! THIS is where is gets interesting, and where you, if you so choose, can play a part! On this night, so many people are praying for visions and revelations, and you better believe they're getting them--but not from Allah! Here are some statistics I've come across (haven't totally validated the sources, but the info is in line with what I've been told in churches around here):

• One source says that 80% (EIGHTY PERCENT!) of new Christians in South Asia come to Christ as a result of a supernatural encounter
• More than half of new believers in Iran have had a dream or vision of Jesus
• At least 35% of recent Turkish conversions were in response to a dream or vision

Here's a story that was shared in the church I was in yesterday:
The man who shared, who is actually the father of one of my students, has a "Muslim" friend. That man has been a Christian now for 15--20 years because of a dream he had during a Night of Power years ago. He had a dream about a pit. All around the pit people were falling in, screaming, and dropping to their deaths. At the edge of a pit was a lamb, and the lamb's neck was slit, and it was bleeding. As all these people continued to fall into the pit, some of the lamb's blood fell on some of the people. Anyone who was touched by a drop of the lamb's blood was saved from the pit. They did not fall. They did not scream. They lived.

I don't know how things progressed next, but that man knew that the truth about Jesus had been revealed to him during that night, even though he had asked another "god" for a revelation. The one God who COULD answer heard his plea, answered, and that man is now serving Him here in Kenya.

So would you join with thousands of other Christians on Friday night to pray for the Muslim world? Pray that they would get their visions, alright! Visions of a risen, living Savior who loves them and gave His life for them. And maybe while you're at it, you could ask God to give you a little bit of compassion for the Muslim world. Maybe you aren't even to that point yet and you just need to care at all. Ask God to work in and on the hearts and lives of more than a billion lost people in our world, and maybe He'll just work on yours too. I know He's working on mine. ~

New Cuisine, A Volcano, and Some Random Thoughts

It has been nearly a month since I last wrote, and since it's a drizzly, cool afternoon, and things have slowed down a bit, I figured it was time for an update. This one is going to be kind of random--I'll try to recap a few things I've done, for those of you who are wondering, and I'll mention a few thoughts that have been rattling around in my brain for the past week or two. If you've been following my pictures on facebook, some of this might seem a bit redundant to you, so feel free to skip ahead! :)

Over the last month, I've had several new "Kenyan" adventures! Here are a few highlights:

• A few weeks ago I tried Indian food for the first time. Eh. Not so much a fan (yet, anyway). I miss Don Senor.
  
• Last night I tried Ethiopian food for the first time. Definitely a unique experience! I thought a few things were pretty good...but kind of changed my mind when they came back to haunt me at 2 a.m. this morning as it felt like the spices were burning a hole in my stomach lining!

The 2 a.m. Culprit

• I started driving about two weeks ago, and while I haven't ventured farther than 3 km yet (about a mile), at least I took the first step! For those of you who don't know, in Kenya we drive on the left side of the road, the driver's seat is on the right side of the car, and most cars have a manual transition with the gear shift to the left of the driver. All of those things were a little intimidating at first, but I finally decided I couldn't live for three years without being able to fend for myself a little bit, so I bit the bullet. I have been VERY thankful that my first car back in high school was a stick shift! I hadn't driven one for years, but thankfully it came back to me very easily! Hopefully in the next week or two I'll try to drive a little further and expand my "driving horizons."

• Last weekend, as part of our full staff orientation, we went hiking at Mt. Suswa, a double volcanic crater north of Nairobi that's in part of the the Great Rift Valley. While the hike was a little challenging (at an elevation of 7000+ feet, my lungs weren't ready for that yet!), it was breathtakingly beautiful. It was great to get out of the city a bit and just see more of God's creation. It made me think about how many beautiful things are out there that I'll never get to see this side of heaven, and it reminded me of how limited my scope of the world is. About 25 of us stayed overnight to camp on the rim--again, one of the most beautiful things I've seen. Plus, all of this was made much more pleasant to me with the fact that it has been cool and/or chilly for the last two weeks! (I love it!) Besides camping, the group of us who stayed were invited to a Masai village for a ceremony that afternoon. More about that in a moment...

On the rim of the crater
The summit
Our campsite

• Also last weekend, my aunt was back in Nairobi. My cousin and her son were here also before they flew back to Denver. I met up with them and Davis and some of their friends from Indy for lunch at an amazing restaurant on the other side of Nairobi. It was nice to have family in town, and we had a great time visiting and catching up.

• School started 2 days ago, on Thursday. I have 23 students in my class who are from somewhere around 7 different countries. However, many of them have lived in several countries, so the amount of countries that make up their international experience is quite a bit beyond 7, I believe! I can already tell I have a lot to learn from them this year! They seem like a really sweet group of kids, so I hope we have a great year together. I love that, since I'm at a Christian school, I get to start each day with them by having a devotional time and a chance to sing together! What's more exciting is that several, if not quite a few, of them come from Muslim, Hindu, or nonreligious homes, so I really do have my own little mission field right in my classroom. It's a humbling, but exciting, thought.

So there are a few of the things that have kept me busy. Now I'll share a few of the things that have been bumping around in my head for the last week or two. None of them are quite what I'd call profound in and of themselves, but maybe God will use them to mean something more to you!

1. As I mentioned earlier, some of us had the chance to visit a Masai village near Mt. Suswa last weekend. I don't think I can quite explain the "remoteness" of this village. It was out in the middle of nearly-barren land. Everything around was very dry with sparse vegetation and little to no water supply. Here was this little group of people who live every day trying to survive (which is really beyond me how they actually do). They have TINY, dark houses that are crawling with bugs and full of smoke from the "kitchen". Their cattle are their livelihood, and it's hard to imagine where they got ANYTHING they needed--blankets, cloth, pots for cooking. I have no idea where they get those things. But here they were, welcoming us to their village in the middle of Nowhere, Rift Valley. What struck me as we visited was how many tiny groups of people like this there must be all over the planet--with nothing else around except some tourist buses, cows, and dust tornadoes. Yet, as insignificant as their place in the world seems, God made each of them! He has placed them there in this time and place just as much as He's placed the rest of us anywhere else. He knows them each by name, and He has a plan for their lives! It kind of makes my brain hurt if I think about it too much. But it reminds me of what a great big God we serve!

Masai Man

Masai Woman

2. I've heard this quote from Mother Teresa before, but someone shared it with our staff last week and it keeps coming back to me: "In this life we cannot do great things; we can only do small things with great love." It has meant a lot to me for several reasons. First, I think many of us think we NEED to do great things--great things as defined by the world. We don't. If we can't succeed in loving people in the small things, then no "great thing" means anything in God's Kingdom. The other reason it has resonated with me is in thinking of my students, which was kind of the context in which this was shared with us. I know that teachers can have a big influence--good or bad--on a child's life, and that's a little scary. I also know that as a teacher it is very easy to get focused on the task we have of educating students and forget about the other needs that they have--needs that might take more energy or patience from us, needs that might take us away from our planning time, and needs that might detour from the tasks we had planned. However when we take time to show love, God's love, to our students in the small things, it will could make an eternal difference in the life of that child AND make a change in our hearts as well. Of course this doesn't just apply to teachers and students, it applies to all Christians. Do small things with great love. Think about it. It might just change the way you live.

3. "Absence makes the heart grow fonder." Another quote I've heard before. What has hit me in the last week or so as I've thought about this is not that I'm fonder of the people I'm absent from and that I miss, I just realize how much they meant to me and how much I didn't always make the most of the time I had with them. It's very easy to take the people in our lives for granted--until they're gone. I am so thankful for things like Skype, MagicJack, and facebook, because moving to Africa would be a very different experience if I were cut off from those I love and miss (and until recently, that was exactly the way it was when people went this far away from home). Getting to see pictures from my goofy teacher-friends in their new t-shirts, see video of my dog, hear a friend's voice on a phone message, keep up with friends through facebook chats--all of these things are simple things, but they have meant the world to me over the last few weeks. I have moved around a lot in my life, so leaving people I love is nothing new. However, the relationships I've developed as an adult in the last few years have been among the most meaningful in my life, and leaving those behind has been harder than I imagined. So, all of this is to say don't take the people in your life for granted. You never know when God will call you or them somewhere else, and while we do have the blessing of communication, it's not the same.

Well, that's all I have for today! I pray that God will use something in this post to bless or encourage you. Thank you for the many prayers so many of you have prayed for me--it means more than you'll ever know! A closing thought: A few weeks ago, I hired a local man to paint for me. He worked 18 hours in a week, and I paid him a TOTAL of about $35. (Considering that the average income here is $2/day, that was a great rate--but still it seemed to me that was nothing compared to how hard he'd worked.) When I'd asked him what I owed him, he didn't really want to say, and finally suggested a total that was about 30% less than that. I really had no idea what the going rate was, so I paid him more than he suggested, which apparently made him very happy. With a huge smile on his face, he shook my hand and in his limited English he said, "God bless you!" Humbled beyond words, the only thing I could think was, "He already has, Meshach. He already has."